Why Did I Say Yes?
That was pretty much the theme for the day.
First I needed a bit more money for summer (actually any would have been nice) so I agreed to teach 12 days of summer school. 6 hours of English. . .straight. Now how was this a good idea? Students who could not pass an hour of english per day are sequestered in a white walled classroom for 6 hours a day. Who was the genius that thought that ended well? The teacher next to me (who only has 19 students and i have 35) literally hands out worksheets and does not one ounce of teaching. She closes the second half with movies. I on the other hand dog and pony with this stupid integrity that says I need to teach. So powerpoints, activities, collaboration. I’m hitting all the dog and pony shows.
Then A friend called. I so should have said no.
Then an ex-called. I so should have said no.
Then another friend cancelled going to a poetry reading with me. And I said no problem, when i should have said, no it’s not okay.
And now I’m doing this, when I am sure I should be saying no to this computer and doing something better for me. Exercise? Nah. . .that seems like work.
Perhaps I am seeing this all wrong. Maybe I should be grateful that I have so many people that can damage from over a phone line, and some that can show up and personally inflict a little pain. There are people that have no one at all.